Three years present.

Wow. I completely forgot I had this thing. How did I get here?

i am at school right now. i am officially a college student. and i am terrifyingly happy. it is more thrilling than it is nerve racking at this point. there's not enough energy in me to completely detail what has been going on as of so far. my roomate is great her name is brandi. she is the calmest person ever and she's christian. thank you god, for understanding my impatience of loud people. i have been blasting "helpless among friends"(when my roomate is not in the room) since i got here. anything even near the hxc scene or anyone remotely interested is non-existant in the dorms. let alone any christian ones. but i have managed to unite a clan of alterna-kids. they are not christian but right now thats is all.

i am seeing someone.what ?! it looks weird just writing that, but it is true i have found my emo soulmate. his name is Andrew and today is his birthdate he is turning 20 and they will be cake. yay.

gosh there is soo much more i have to say. and things i want to be prayed about from anyone reading this. i am in a tough spot between my independence and my salvation. it is a drastic thing to say. but i feel alone, fellowship- wise. i have not met anyone encouragingly chirstian.

i am missing you all !!!!!!

shopping cart racing in the walmart parking lot just doesn't cut it for me.

well homesick home.

Currently Reading Lord of the Flies By William Gerald Golding see related

so i am ready to go. sorta, a few more days and i'll be on my own. i am procrastinating so badly, i have to have people remind me what it is i have to do. like pack my stuff. i am just soooo anxious and excited and scared all at the same time. i know that i am going to throw up come thursday. it's like right before i had my ears pierced,  i could hardly breath and i was shaking like a maddog but i felt like i just HAD to go for it, regardless. i can tell that this will feel the same way.

but GOD is so good through it all he's really allowing me the confidence to not freak out eventhough i have had my doubts.